Kafétorsdag

Who r u?
Margrethe Øien Guldvog

How r u feeling?
Fucking ace.

It's been three insane years. I started at Rud completely unfamiliar with anything associated with the word "normal". I was shy, unsocial and a complete mess. I'm still a mess and cannot be associated with normality, but other than that I am different. Despite my many fits of rage and frustration against things Rud, I honestly could not be happier that I chose that school as my foundation, that I stayed in it through better or worse (I am usually very bad at that) and that I managed to get the best fucking friends, experiences and lessons out of it that anyone could ask for. I've said it many times, but I'll say it again: I am the luckiest person in the world.

Even though Rud officially ended yesterday (we had a big graduation, where Phil and I performed, and partied through the night), I went over to the school one final time today. Just to say goodbye. The halls felt very abandoned, until I found Siv and Hanna there. We sat down in the music hall, where we always lunched, talked about life and blocked the way for the busy people, and went down memory lane. Then Phil showed up unexpectedly and we had him annoy Siv one last time with his aggressive piano playing. Beethoven has never sounded so awesome.

Just as I was walking out of the building, feeling like a bird being pushed out of the nest against its will, I was met by my old drama teacher. He told me his memories of who I was when I first came to Rud and about how I he felt I had blossomed into a performer, about how he thought I had made the right choices, that he was happy for me and that he believed in me. I was brought to tears. He gave me a hug. The best hug. It was an unforgettable moment. I don't really feel like that bird anymore. Instead I feel free to love Rud for what it was and is. I am going to miss, especially these first weeks, but I know that I am heading out to do some big shit. I mean, I've managed this far. I might as well keep going.

ps:
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